The thing Is that i'm a an artist, And i really hate that i can't find a real reference to draw a real alien :( :(

I believed all my life on extraterrestrials, but why haven't i saw an ufo or Even a Dream with aliens or so....basically i never had a paranormal experience, i observe sky all time And nothing..my parents had a really close encounter with an ufo so they all me thaght me that.....just one time a Saw a boomerand shape thing with circle lights below but i was on acid lol...so i cannot Say ir happened