I see that and agree with you , but I guess that's kinda not what I am looking for

I'm looking for a pseudo scientific / gnosis/ esoteric way of thinking / action. Clearly from the similarities of all these religions / universe / pineal gland / holofractals/ holographic universe /

Some kind of knowledge , something we can do , a form of thinking , to manipulate matter or operate "on a higher conciousness"

Seeing the ancient 10,000 societies , seeing ancient knowledge of mathematics , there is more than meets the eye

Survival / growing the ego , my ego , my identity in life is becoming meaningless to me more and more after I've been working on the ego , reading r awakening r spirituality , looking into kundalini (not so much practicing it personally ) , seeing from atoms to cosmos , etc

Seeing our life is so pointless on this earth , our grandiose complex emotions and wanting to make ourselves something great , get a good job to get good money and shit is becoming less and less appealing

What interests me is our mind perhaps possibly working on a different dimension / quantum level -- all this stuff interest me more

I don't give a shit about some faggety fuck trying to take over the world , its all meaningless we will all die , I don't even want to spend the effort in fighting this "Petri dish" of an earth societal bullshit from greedy / ignorant individuals trying to take over the world

I don't want to fight that fight I want to fight a bigger fight , we are all insignificant

It's like 99% of fucking America which believes they are smarter than everybody else , the entire populace short of a few are running robots , skilled in a repetitive task of mindless drone work , trained to worship the dollar with an entire adult culture from class , to attraction , to desire , to even new age Joel Osteen religion where it's all about the I , .... what's the point ?

I have mu vision which I believe will be a better earth and future of humanity , but the humans don't even want it , operating on the egoic-universal consciousness , don't even wanna bother

I want to do more

I don't truly mean this or believe it 100% but ya better believe it makes one ponder ...

How can we join the fight for the side of love , free will , and light ? Unity and togetherness , how to fight for it ?